Time of change...

Well I'm doing it.. I'm moving to a different city & away from my comfort zone. Sink or swim it's all no me now. I want to live with no regrets. I need to take control.
I need to do this for me & I know not everyone will understand. My husband tells me he has people telling him why I can't stay with him & work on finding myself at the same time... People who haven't been in a controlling & verbally abusive marriage can not understand.
I don't want a divorce, I want support & understanding. I want to be able to live my life. I have always lived my life for someone else.. 1st is was my parents & then it was my husband. He tells me he'll give me space & time to fall back in love with him.... For now we'll stay married.. Not date anyone.. I'll move & find out what I want in my life. Time will only tell!
I can never forgive for him saying I was worthless in front of our daughter. Verbal abusive is something that takes a toll on your soul & your self worth & now I'm left to pick up the pieces. I don't have the energy in invest in a relationship. I need to focus on my needs & wants.

Happy F***ing Birthday

I recently turned 34! I'm in my "late" 30's as a friend so kindly put it & I guess it's time to take stock of my life. What have a I learned up until now?

• Nothing is better then a great fitting bra.
• Speak your mind.
• You can never have enough shoes.
• Be honest with yourself.
• Be honest with those close to you.
• Don't give too much to people who take advantage of it.
• Say no & stand by it.
• Happiness needs to come from within yourself.

I have thought lately about my life & lack of direction. Like many women I was married young, started a family & didn't think much of a career. I always found such joy in taking care of my family. And now with my daughter 14 & my marriage on the rocks, I find myself empty. I have this desire to make things better. I want to search out ways to help. I want to make a difference.

I'm searching... Searching for myself... Searching for answers...

Welcome!